100 things about me.

Yep, it's come to this.
Everyone else in the blogosphere seems to have done it I'm just about bored enough tonight to do it myself.

*deep breath*
Here goes:

1. I jumped out of my bedroom window and ran away from home after being sent to my room while I was still in junior school.
2. I stayed at my best friends house all afternoon before trying to sneak back into the house.
3. I got caught by my next door neighbour who alerted the rest of the neighbourhood I'd been found, it took 2 days before mum realised I'd seriously hurt myself
   
4. I still have a hairline fracture across my right foot to show for it.
5. I have 3 younger brothers
6. I am the eldest
7. I like to meet new people
8. So far I've been lucky regarding my net meets
9. Apart from the first one I dated, he was a wanker - and my only Asian bloke to date.
10. I got married at 26 to a scout leader
    
11. I'm getting divorced at 29 from a bar manager
    
12. It's completely amicable.
13. I am a karaoke queen
    
14. I used to sing for a living in a covers duo called Electric Blue on the pub/ club scene
15. I lasted 3 months in that job, it sucked so much that for around a year after I quit I didn't like to sing anymore
16. I still miss being in a band, writing songs was fun.
17. I love pictures featuring beautiful landscapes and frequently wish I was in one.
18. I say I never want children but secretly I just think I don't deserve them
19. I can be very bitter about past relationships, not because of what they did to me, but because I allowed them to do it.
20. I try not to be bitter ever and endeavor to put all the crap behind me
21. I have trust issues but I try to ignore them
22. Sometimes I think there is another person in my head guiding my actions, this makes me wonder if I should seek help...
    
23. Every day I try to be a better person
24. I don't always succeed
25. I'm horrible to be around when I'm on my period
26. I don't handle pain at all well
    
27. I hate that that makes me a stereotype
28. I have chronic fatigue syndrome, this means I can be nasty a lot because I'm nearly always in pain.
    
29. I love my boyfriend very much
30. I want more than anything for us to have a home that isn't temporary
    
31. I also want to learn web design so I can work at home around this damned illness.
    
32. I want to see more of my friends but they all live too far away
    
33. I need to learn to drive.
    
34. I want a purple mini - moddied up to the hilt!
    
35. I'm too much of a romantic
36. My favorite type of film falls under the heading 'chick flick'
37. I own several Mills & Boons
38. I plan to get more
39. I spend far too much money on books and dvds
40. I claim I'm open minded but certain lifestyles make me purse my lips like a dried up old spinster aunt
41. I have very strong opinions on very few subjects, I'm better known as miss instant opinion generally
42. I'll talk to anyone about anything and sometimes they'll even think I know what I'm talking about, unless it's sport, can't fake sport.
43. I still don't know what I want with my life, but I do know a lot of what I don't want
44. I used to believe in tree spirits and I'd aplogise if we'd damaged a tree during play
45. Sometimes I still think I have some kind of connection to the world around me, I have moments where I feel a little 'fey'
    
46. I guess that explains my fondness for fantasy books
47. I've been between 9-91/2 stone for the last 10 years
48. I have a terrible diet yet I manage to convince myself I eat healthily
49. I once organised a 4 day music event including 27 bands and it went off without a hitch.
50. I have many humiliating memories but only one embarrassing secret
51. I'll never tell a soul that one thing, everything else is fair game.
52. I have never had a permanent dye on my hair
53. I like tattoos but I'm too picky and lazy to ever get one
54. I used to ride a motorbike
55. I sometimes miss it but I prefer being a pillion
56. I don't like being alone, I need company even if it's only on messenger.
57. I used to love being alone and would often go for long walks to avoid people
58. I don't know why I changed
59. I am very easily distracted
60. I can no longer multi-task
61. I have to be in the right mood if I'm cooking anything fancy, otherwise it just ends up inedible
    
62. I wish I had more ambition and drive
63. I can play the drums a little but I stopped to take up bass guitar
    
64. I stopped playing because of an ex boyfriend, he was a fantastic drummer and he often ridiculed my feeble attempts
    
65. I hate that I allowed him to make me feel that way and wish I'd made him pay for the kit of mine that he gave away when I left (and the bass amp, bloody lovely it was - Nolan valve amp, gorgeous warm sound to it...)
    
66. I sold my first drum kit to pay for my first motorbike
67. I got the better deal
68. I'm jealous of my best friends talent but am too lazy to put in as much work as she does to equal her
69. I have very few friends and none of them live close
    
70. This bothers me occasionally
71. I hate clothes shopping, I have no idea about fashion
72. I love furniture shopping
73. I like to look around properties for sale even though I'm in no position to buy one
74. I have a strange sense of humour
75. I have a strict moral code
76. I'm beginning to realise there's not a lot to know about me
77. I was a bouncer for 6 years
78. It was at a music venue and I met a lot of bands
79. I no longer really enjoy going to gigs because of that job
80. it's the only job I ever really enjoyed and I've had a lot of different kinds of work.
81. I like swords and knives but only to look at, the thought of using them to harm someone sickens me
82. I sometimes dream of killing people or being killed
83. Those dreams are always ridiculously violent
84. I wake up screaming far too often
85. yet in my waking life I'm mostly happy
86. My favourite colour is purple, but I also like green
87. I don't really like pink or yellow - especially pink
88. I love mashed potato
89. When I was 19 I missed my final exam in theatre studies because my bitch housemate switched off my alarm so it wouldn't disturb her - despite being 3 floors above me.
    
90. I lied about it to my dad and step mum and told them I passed and got a 'C'
91. It's the reason they didn't speak to me for 3 months after they found out, I felt no remorse about the lie, I was just angry that my stepmum had opened my mail and started the argument.
92. I have an ok figure, if I ever exercised it'd be a fantastic figure - I'm just too unmotivated
    
93. I will answer any question asked of me but I hate people going through my stuff
94. I can't drive but I want to learn
95. I sometimes worry that I will never be well again
96. I worry about a lot of things all the time, even when I know there is no reason too
97. I bottle things up
98. I don't handle confrontation very well unless I'm in a working environment and it's with someone I don't know
99. The thing I like most in other people is the ability to appreciate the absurd even in the most mundane of things.
    
100. The thing I like most about me is me